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Diane DunnI was ready. The panic in the pit of my stomach had transformed into a hollowness waiting to be filled. Seventeen of us sat in a circle on the ground in a makeshift soccer field carved out of the Peruvian jungle. The ayahuascero poured his tea-colored brew into a glass and each of us drank it. The taste was bitter, strong and earthy.

I sat on my mat and waited for the unknown. Soon an inner dialogue started that lasted for the duration of my amazing journey.

The voices I heard were my own levels of consciousness as well as wisdom guides, messengers, and loudest of all, God Herself. I was disoriented in my body and all my senses, yet capable of discerning and understanding all the messages at once. Nothing was normal. I heard the female voice of God so clearly and felt her presence so close as to be connected, with nothing separating us.

When we got to the subject of my intention I heard her say, "I know you want to see where you will be next and what you will be doing. I want to show you but it depends on you. It depends on what you choose." Just then, I heard a noise and opened my eyes. I saw a tall man standing behind the ayahuascero. It wasn't a man exactly but more like the ghost of a man, a bit transparent. I asked God, "Who is that?" and She answered, "It's part of your future. This man. But it depends on you. What do you want?"

"Where is this man? I want to meet him."

"There is a man who will be at the Conference in Urubamba. He is a very wise person, who has many things to teach you. And he will love you very much. He is like no one you have ever met before. But know that if you choose this, everything else in your life will change. Is that what you want?"

I took a deep breath. "Yes, that is what I want."

"OK. He will be there. And you don't need to look for him. He will find you."

The effects of the ayahuasca were becoming milder. My senses were feeling more familiar. The voices were quieting down. In their place was a profound love. Love so deep and wide, I simply floated in it.

Know that if you choose this, everything else in your life will change.

And it did.