Hi there - this is free, so take it for what it's worth.
No one is in a better position to help you than you. If you're open to seeing what's blocking you then you will see. You want to be ready to deal with what you see.
You can no longer abide this impasse, yet you need to get past the fear, so that you can face what you see.
That's very difficult for everyone, yet everyone has to take that step alone.
You may find a practitoiner to heal you, but trust me, they can only take you as far as they have gone themselves.
If no one is reaching out to help you here, it's because no one here has integrated this aspect of the "growth curve" enough to be a guide for you.
I guess we're all working on the integration of our experience, and the healing that comes from that.
I used this forum for awhile, but it was even more lonesome than doing it on my own - which I've gotten used to. But it was a hard thing to get used to.