Asperger’s syndrome which stops me from usually being concouisly aware of many of my emotions...
Diagnostic labels like "Asperger’s syndrome" can become a terrible prison of self-limitation! This one especially is just a varied description of what is seen in some individuals at a certain point in time
[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asperger%27s] and can, and often does, improve both with time and with training.
I grew up in a family where emotional skills, such as emotional awareness and emotional expression were not particularly well practiced, valued or encouraged. I carried this trend forwards in my life until at age 37 I had a trauma too big for my stunted emotional skills to handle. In the months that followed I became aware of strange feelings - energies inside me - and gradually started to recognise them as specific emotions: sadness, anger, grief, fear etc. Previously I had experienced and handled/responded to most things that had happened to me, at the mental level.
I had to learn a new language! ..and I had to learn to cry - at first there was just a slight shrug of my shoulders, then a faint whimper, then gradually as the trauma continued to reverberate through my life, causing more upsets and an obsessional constant revisiting of it - eventually I could fully and holistically cry, rage and grieve about the tragic events that had happened, and I thereby began to heal and liberate myself from the past so that new creativity - a new life or "rebirth" could happen for me. In this new life, my enhanced emotional self-awareness, open-ness and self-expression brought me richer, deeper relationships - especially a deeper and richer relationship with myself!
So, take heart, Tansyuduri! Don't imprison yourself in rigid, restrictive beliefs about your capabilities. Don't let them become a safe "better-the-devil-I-know" excuse for avoiding risks and personal growth!