Please have a look at www.shuem.com.
I've been working with this shaman and teacher for ten years and seen amazing results; people litterally lighten up as if a burden is taken from their shoulders.
I'm quite sure Stefan won't exactly answer your question, but through his healing sessions the harmony within yourself gets restored and thereby those parts that are you but seem to be lost automatically return.
Stefan gives long distance healing with a live internet connection, so you can listen to your personal healing ritual. We work with it for two years now and the results are as excellent as when you would come to meet him.
All the best,
I agree with Wabke you should try to meet and talk to him he might help you wish your problem solve just keep in touch thats the best way of whats happening thanks and regards!